Started the day with a trip to the doctors, slightly underweight and low blood pressure. GREAT…. Lets not go there…

Why do I feel myself getting stressed out over all this ?

Whats going off at the moment? Too damn much i’d say.
I really do feel like I’m on my own sometimes, everyone always seems to be too busy? I need a member of staff that works for nothing just like I do thats in the same room. Building up a business is difficult at times, I just wish that we had an office that isnt home, so i can get away from it when I need to, and that me & olly were both in the same place working on things at the same time.

I feel really isolated at the moment, and it feels like things are working against me 24/7. No matter how far I get, theres always something more to do and I come back to the common denominator. I AINT GETTIN PAID for anything.

I fuckin hate the situation I have been put in, don’t get me wrong, I love the fact that after all these years me and my Dad have patched things up and we are gettin on great, we have alot to catch up on and we are both happy to be in contact again. I’ve never been happier in that sense and have still not written about Me & my Dad, but theres alot to write. However, my finances aren’t great at the moment. My debts are under control, but I still have no income and am payin the minimum amount on things (big thanks to the Consumer Credit Counselling Service).

I’m limited to what I can do being without my car and living in such a small village. I feel so isolated and lonely at times. Me & my Dad both have alot of work on at the moment, I wish I could help him more aswell cos he has got some great ideas, but at the same time I have a dream to fulfil and I cannot give that up or ignore it at any time, its come too far and I know for sure that things will plan out as we expect.

MaxxDirectory has been a burning ambition for so long now, and is finally getting somewhere. I feel that I owe it to not only myself but olly and the club aswell. I’m NOT giving up for anything. I’ve had too many things old me back in my life and nows the time to shine. I need to have that sense of achievement in my life. Not that I’m unhappy with my past, I was an Office Manager for a promotional clothing company for three years, had alot of respect and did a wicked job for them. I then went into Sales work and have never had a bad word against me. I’ve excelled in everything I’ve ever done. My last job was a Sales Floor Manager for Phones 4 U, that was challenging and hard work at times, but I buzzed off it, really enjoyed it.

If it wasnt for me splittin up with my girlfriend, losing my house and being left in a financial mess I’d still be there. BUT, saying that, it is the best thing thats ever happened to me, cos I’m back in my Dads life and I have had the chance to work on the businesses. Its just a shame I’m 90 miles away from where I need to be.

I was that wound up today that I actually stayed away from the PC until late on and carried on with the trailer, theres alot to do there and its nice to be outside in the sun doing something more manual. Started on the fags again though which i’m not happy about but fuck it, you only live once.

Think I best get to bed, I have too much on my mind and I can see this BLOG entry going on forever, how depressed do I sound? Its not that bad, I’ll get over it.

Another thing thats pissing me off, mobile phones, you all one right? So why communicate with texts and fuckin emails? What ever happened to modern conversation? People soon won’t talk to one another, the world will become a silent place, and everything will be done through emails and text messages.
One good thing about that I suppose, maybe all them moaning people out there will shut their fuckin hole and write to you instead so you can just whack it through the shredder or “HIGHLIGHT it” and press “CTRL ALT DEL ”

Anyways, bed time…..
Next blog entry should be a bit more positive, I HOPE.

First thing, got on the PC and started sorting through the marketing method for the Directory, changing the write up I did a while back, making it sound more appealing, and catchy without it being too over the top, I also took out the bits that were not needed. I spent most of the morning on this, ensuring that it was perfect and if it was put in front of my own company, would I buy the service? I would now.

I then changed two pages on MaxxDirectory, cleaned up some of the existing listings, and cracked on with the e marketing software and sorted the database out. What a sight, 8530 people in one list, unbelievable. Messed about with that for an hour or two sending out some tests making sure all was ok. That was another job out the way.
Spoke to a good friend in Nottingham who is hooking us up with a band for an event we are doing a bit of marketing for. All is looking good, he is also gonna DJ for us, top bloke. That gives me piece of mind, this event MUST run smoothly. He also reminded me about the mix he was puttin together for me to take to car shows to give Maxxd somethin special. Its one for the in car systems and will have the likes of Mr Vegas, Lethal Bizzle & the Kray Twins rapping some shoutouts to Maxxd, I cant wait..

I fiinally got the Aztec website finished, I put the finishing touches to it this evening, and everyone is happy. ANOTHER job out the way, I am getting somewhere at last

The Polo is sprayed and is looking very very nice indeed, just needs the lacquer now, who thought a silver undercoat would make so much difference, it looks the bomb. Still no news from TSW, although we did have a good little chat today, and they seem interested in the car, good news ahead, I hope. All my fingers and toes are crossed.

I have installed a new gallery to my site, which runs a whole lot better than the old crap I was using, thanks to Bruton, its all working perfectly now and i’ve added quite a few pictures to it.

Time for bed I think, its well late (or should i say early), I have another busy day ahead, hopefully Olly will have some time free later and we can finish this marketing project and get it all launched.
How did that song go? “they’re aint no stoppin us now, we’re on the move”

Goodnight

Got up early, made a new website for Aztec Construction, that I have been meaning to get done for ages, It just needs photos and logos which I am waiting for, but the main job is out the way. On with the next ….

The whole directory is fixed, bar a few minor things that I have noticed, but thats not holding me back.

Spoken to a company today that are gonna help us out with a little project we got going. It made me and Olly think real hard and get the final touches done to the actual plan ahead.

Within the next week or two, you will begin to see a few new things on the site, and we are both hitting this new service very hard, and will get it launched very very soon.. Things are finally taking shape, the broken box is now becoming a 3D block

Looks like i’ve got some long hours ahead and alot of data to sort through, but it’ll all be worth it.

The trailer is coming on nicely, more bits have been stripped and painted.

Polo is being painted tomorrow, and the airbrush towards the end of the week, I need to chase up TSW tomorrow about my wheels, and then find a new grill, I could really do with someone going to the VW/Audi breakers in Nottingham but everyones at work. I’ll see if the guy can post it for me..

I really hope that the car is all sorted for LSOM, cos I really need to be there, its an important one, plus if I dont attend I’ll be gettin the leather glove treatment (slap).

Today has really given me a kick, I like it when things start falling into place even more so, lets hope this is the start of what we have been working on for so long now.

Last but not least, I have had a dirty mind on me today, I dont know why, maybe cos I havent seen my girlfriend in about two weeks or more. My mind is very oversexed at times, its very very annoying.. Come and see me

What a weekend.. After a long deserved sleep, I woke up feeling fresh and got cracking with the new trailer project. As you may have read, my Dads bought a 16ft car trailer and it needs a bit of work.

Did some bits on it Saturday, and kept nippin on and off the PC. Spoke to Olly in the day about what we are doing with the business and came up with a few more ideas, got the directory repaired and fine tuned – Olly has come up with a good idea that I need to get behind next week whilst sorting a few things with the MaxxDirectory. A new service that is gonna be an exclusive and has never been experienced is coming this way, soon
Saturday night, Olly & Scott came to pick me up and we drove down to the cruise in Peterborough. Was quite a good one, I have not been to one in a while, there were plenty of nice motors there and I managed to catch up with a few of the lads from Borocruisers. One Max Power photographer, JC, lots of smoke, lots of noise, plenty of pictures taken, good night (not bad to say I had the biggest headache in the world from the humidity down here)

Was nice to see Olly & Scott, not long now and i’ll be driving again.

Sunday was a long day, was working on the trailer for the most of it. Stripped it down, cleaned it all up, chopped some sections out of it, gave it some wire brush lovin and painted one section of it. Once me and ma Dad have finished this it’ll be a beaut. I’m enjoyin spending time with my Dad, we have been kept apart for alot of years for the wrong reasons, and have alot of catching up to do, and the time is doing me a world of good.

Finished workin early evening time and had managed to get the brownest back ever, not too burnt but it will be ok. I tan well easily. If only I could spend more time on it, a break from the PC does me good, but now i’m back and have lots to do.

Best get on and carry on bloggin tomorrow…..

Thursday 20th…
I had been trying to find some seats for the Polo and had visited several breakers yards searching for some VW seats that I could have retrimmed, after a few and no one having polos, I phoned Jonny T and asked him for some advice telling him that I had been looking for some seats. There just happened to be a guy stood near me that overheard my conversation and told me he had what I was looking for..

So, half an hour later, I’m at his house staring at some Cobra Daytona’s, that he had ready for retrimming but had recently bought some Sidewinders and no longer needed these. I got talkin to him about cars and clubs telling him about Maxxd and it was of the biggest coincidence that he was one of the Admin for Borocruisers (the local club that I had recently been speaking with) we shook hands and I introduced myself and told him that I had recently been on the site and we could not believe how coincidental this was.

Anyways, after a long chat, I handed the man 60notes and he helped carry the seats out to the 4×4. NICE ONE.. What a bargain, things were fallin into place nicely. Just need them retrimming in cream leather and they’ll look like new.

So, the next step… Me and my Dad had planned to go to Cumbria the following day to collect a 16ft Car Trailer and decided that it would be best to start the journey early. He called his Mum & Dad (my grandparents) and arranged to stay there for the night, to cut the journey down a bit and at the same time, get my grandad to make me some subframes for the seats.

I arranged to stay at Ko’s house, and also call in at the bodyshop to see how the car was looking and measure the floor for the frames. The Polo is coming along very nicely, and will be done for next Friday, it just needs some engine attention, which I can get sorted no doubt..

We arrived in Mansfield just short of 5pm, I got dropped off at the bodyshop, stayed there for a while, talked them all to death, and then got a lift into Woodhouse and went to see Laura & Jess (the hairdressers), whilst waiting for Ko to turn up.

Had a wander, dropped my things off at Ko’s, chilled at his house for a bit, went to see Olly, then met up with Fordizzle (old school mate) and went to get Fish & Chips…

Must have walked miles that night, ended up back at Ko’s (obviously), watched Big Brother and got down on the settee for the night.

Friday 21st…

Left Ko’s at 8.30am, went upto the bodyshop as the car was being primed, and I HAD to witness it, they have really got stuck into this, I cant wait to get it back.. roll on nxt week… Did a bit of runnin about in town, then headed up to my grandma’s for dinner.

Sarah called me (my ex girlfriend) informin me that our cat had been runover and killed. She had been away and had someone lookin after them, the cat got left out over night, and ran into a car. That really upset and pissed me off. The cat was Ruby, one we had for about 18 months, she was such a nice cat. Nice of someone to own up to it, just dumped her at the side of the road and drove off. Thats what we think anyways, we believe it happened on the street? That made me sad for the rest of the day

My grandad had finished my subframes, NICE ONE, and everything was rock & roll, got our things together and started the journey to Cumbria..

5 hours, 150 miles, two pints of sweat and a headache later we were at our destination, a little village called Shap in Cumbria. We had some food and a pint in the pub and met the guy who was selling the trailer. We must have been there ten minutes, the deal was sealed and we were on our way back..AT LAST…

The journey home was 218 miles, and we didnt leave until 9pm..

6 hours, one routine police vehicle and trailer check, six pisses and stiff legs later we arrived at home (3am bang on)

I have never got into bed so fast in my life.. What a long absolutely knackering day..

More later….

Got up at 7.30am this morning and it was hot, not warm, but HOT, I could not believe it..

Its been that hot that it’s been hard to sit and concentrate, I spend most of the morning sorting bits out for the car. One of my sponsers called me to see how things were going and if i was still gonna be ready for Ultimate Street Car in August. I said yes, if my wheels pull through, and then explained to him what problems I have had.

The good news is.. that my sponsor is gonna speak to a wheel company (after i had sent them a letter) and see if he could pull any strings. By the sounds of it, it should be ok, and the car will be ready just in time for the show.

Its coming on nicely at the bodyshop, the whole car is stripped out now, doors off, bonnet, boot etc and the front and rear bumpers are fitted. I’m told that it will be sprayed by the end of next week, thats if the wheels get there in time, as they need to ensure the arches are sound before spraying. I dont think they’re will be any more problems, lets hope not.. Its gonna look so nice, I can’t wait. Roll on getting the old lifestyle back

I have done bits on the Construction website today, I never thought I’d have a nightmare like this, but for some reason, I can’t get it right, I need a better quality logo for starters.

Been shopping (again), got cooked in the 4×4 then had to drive all the way back cos someone decided to leave the fuel cap on the petrol pump, DOH…

Came back home again, and got down on the back garden to catch some sunrays whilst listening to the tunes from my W810i. Managed to fall asleep aswell, luckily I NEVER burn.. thank god…

The evening was spent doing the website again, I’ve not really got far at all, the humidity has well pissed me off today, talk about feeling irritable… I think someone got the raw end of it this evening too (sorry)

After todays events, I have decided that I’m gonna save up some money and get out of the UK for a few weeks, I’m dying for a break, it will do me good. My Dad mentioned sending me off to the States for a fortnight on my own, which would be nice for me. I do need to do something, maybe its time to try and talk Olly into a cheap holiday, we’d have a rate laugh.

Thats it for today, another hot day tomorrow, I’m gonna attempt and have a good nights sleep.

Question for the readers….Have you ever done something in your life, that you kinda regretted or jumped in at the deepend, maybe an action or a rash decision, later findin that maybe you made a wrong decision?