Sweet
Postman came intime, 45 VIP tickets for the Blaupunkt suite at the weekend MINT.

Got all my shirt sorted, shaved the mess at last, got all my things sorted and am about to head over to Mansfield.

Got to meet Laura for a bit which should be a laugh and go get my hair cut

The weekend starts here

Gaz has talked me into tryin his red wine tonight so that will be the beginning..

Hardcore mashup weekend here we come

ROCK ON

ps: Just found a photo of an old school friend stood with Cheryl Tweedy (shes in the Music industry) I’m soooo jealous – also, go find the Cheryl Tweedy diss by Lily Allen its class

Got up about 10am, sorted out my car insurance as I had loads of paperwork to sort, bloody reports for this and that, owning a modded car can be a pain at times.

Got quite alot done today, managed to sort through a load of data for the girls to start on next week AND have got Sage Accounts back – nice one Nic, I owe ya one..

I have been using Sage for about six years now, I love it, theres nothing better for running the financial side of a business. I actually missed using it which sounds sad but i got used to it, it used to play a vital role when I was Office Manager at P&P..

So, all is going according to plan, be nice for things to happen a bit sooner but fuck being impatient, no point rushin things that need doing properly eh?

Gonna go over to Mansfield later on and get my bits for trax and make sure i’m there for the Friday morning convoy. Gonna stay with Gaz which should be a laugh. Red wine here we come.

Been talking to Wardo today about the weekend, its gonne be a cracker, got a few things planned, I’m really looking forward to it.

Alot had happened today, I aint gonna mention the shit side of things cos i’m tryin to ignore it at the moment so I dont get distracted. Gotta stay focused and positive.

More blogging from me after the weekend.

To all my readers, have a good weekend, cos i’m gonna rinse it up

Yes, for real…

Got alot on the brain so best get it out…..

Dad’s sites sorted, wasn’t much to do like. It is 100% search engine friendly, so we’ll see how long this one takes to get on google

Been out into town tonight, met up with Garner & Tash, and got introduced to a few more fellow modders. Quiet little town is Wisbech, there must be something around here thats good. Someone pls pls pls do something.

The local car club that once “was” is no longer, so it looks like this town needs a new one, its funnt to hear people talk about the club they was in, and to see what other site owners do..

From what I have seen so far, Maxxd aint got nothing to worry about, as for our members, compared to the other clubs I have witnessed, my advice is don’t go anywhere folks – we are improving and expanding for 2007

I’m glad to get out and about again, I just miss my friends and having a girlfriend that I actually mean something to and can feel at home with. As they say, good things come to those who wait, and errrrrrrrrrrrr, ya know… i’m waiting and waiting……………….and errrrrrrrrrrrrrr waiting..

Had a lie in this morning, I can’t remember the last one I actually had, was nice to actually have a good nights sleep in my own bed.

Today I have mainly caught up on a few things, such as emails and website stuff. I have got my bank letters all done and sorted out a few more loose ends from the move.. I’m using my diary more and becoming more organised by the day and I feel alot more relaxed when I can see everything in writing.

Sorted Trax tickets out too (thanks Jo, look forward to meeting you on Sunday) – i need to behave at Trax, Sunday I am meeting a rep from Future Publishing to discuss what we are doing with Maxxd, MaxxDirectory & Dijitul in 2007 and what we can do together. Quite looking forward to it, just means I’ll have to get stupidly drunk Friday and not so much Saturday.

Also went out for a few hours with my Dad to help him promote his business, just a case of calling on local companies, leaving them with a card and talkin em to death for a bit, all good fun cos I love talking.

A friend of mine has been in a bad accident and is undergoing surgery today, so I’m sat waiting for a call or his phone to be on to find out if he’s ok. He is lucky to be alive.

I dont know how and why, but my phone seems to have gained a few extra numbers to people I cant think who the hell they are, i’m well puzzled. Someone called Raven & Savage, sounds like the name of an exhaust. They definately aint females so I aint gonna worry too much, it will come back to me one day.

Forgot to mention the Source Sounds JL Audio boat from yesterday, all I can say is WOW. Heres a plug from me, you deserve it. Unbelievable. Big respect goes out to Source Sounds in Sheffield.

http://sourcesounds.com/

Right, thats enough for one evening, i’m off to scout about town for a bit before I crack on with some serious data inputting and build a ickle website for my Dad.

Coming soon……………………….. Sun article, Sales work and Trax – oh yeah – i need to find love in my life or at least someone to share my spare time with, its getting to me.
ps: if your are a car interior company reading this, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE help me out

Been over in Mansfield for a fortnight working. Not work that I enjoy alot, but its money in the bank, and a break from working on the PC.

When I’ve not been working i’ve been with Olly or Ko mainly, chilling out, going out in the car, discussing a few things regarding the future etc etc.

I’m not gonna go into every single thing that has happened over the last two weeks, had some shit days along with good days and they kinda balanced between the two. I still seem to get the odd clawback from my previous relationship and hassle about some stupid matter now and again, but that can easily be ignored.

Me & Olly have kinda employed two friends to help us with the MaxxDirectory side of things and i’m really looking forward to it, I feel good about it and i’m sure things will work out.

The two friends are two that I’ve not really been that close too until recently, and have found a side to me that went missing a couple of years ago. Mixing with other women, I’m aloud to do it now without ANY agro whatsoever. It’s been nice going out with them and talking about past and present. We also got taken out for a meal (YES, WE got took out and SPOILT) – not something that you will witness very often. – Hol, Fi – thanks for your support and for being cool

Olly has been asked to move out, bit of a shock for him but i think its what he needs right now to allow him to move on and change his routine maybe? In the ideal world, we should live together for a while, it would allow us to get alot more work done on the things we are doing, being in the same place an all. Things would work so much better. Another obstacle for us really, its been one after the other. With a bit of luck things should pick up in the next month or so and maybe we’ll start seein the rewards.

I am glad to have spent some time back in Mansfield and spend time with the lads again, I do miss em all. It makes me sad to be so far away sometimes. I really wish that things could be different, I love the fact that i’ve got my Dad back in my life, i really do but i wish i wasn’t so far away – it sucks

I feel like i’m in a pickle at the moment, alot of going off, alot that is important for the future, however I find myself stuck inbetween what I want and what OTHERs want from me. I want to carry on working on MaxxDirectory and Dijitul and get things booming but at the same time, i’ve thrown all my cards on the table and am doing all I can to make it happen. The biggest thing for me to grasp is the “no wages” problem and how I have commited most of my time to do this (i.e: i DONT work for anyone, therefore I have NO wage and struggle to keep afloat) – All this for that chance that things will work.

If all goes belly up then I’ve wasted more of my time and could have easily got a 20k a year job and have money again. I wish other people could feel how I do, have the confidence that I have and realise what we have here. Take the risk and jump in at the deepend. I’ll give up my social life, a full time job, an income, and whats left of my cooked brain to make everything go according to plan and I wont stop until it does. However, I NEED support, even if its a conversation here and there, bit of reassurance now and again. I’m a very positive person but still like to know others around me are there supporting me and not having a negative outlook.

I’m gonna stop typing now cos its getting too long.

Thanks to Daz & Ko for the accomodation, Olly for being Olly. Ko for bringin back some old memories, Vicky for the grown up chat (don’t forget my surname if ya reading )

Fiona & Hollie for snapping me out of the wrong frame of mind and begin so nice and helpful (and making me laugh occassionally)

Also thanks to Shaun & Nic for the work again, much appreciated.

Was nice to see you all again, gonna miss you like crazy.

This weeks ‘get bent, and get a life’ goes out to: Danny & Sarah – stop wasting both our time

Monday – workin – then dinner & shower at my mum’s, then back to Ollys – Had a late night.

Tuesday – workin – then dinner & shower at my mum’s, went out into town, then back to Ollys, another late night, fell asleep (no surprise)

Wednesday – workin – dinner & shower at my mum’s, then went to see everyone at the
Early Doors, then back to Ollys for another late night.

Thursday – workin – then dinner & shower at my mum’s – then went to Oakerthorpe with my good friend Vicky who’d i’d not seen for quite some time, had a good chat and catch up. Went back to Ollys quite late, and went to bed about 2am.

Friday – workin – then called in to see Vicky in Lincoln, had tea, and spent a bit of time with her. Things aint any better, I know whats coming. Feel like i’ve wasted the last three months? Maybe its just me? I dont get the same vibes anymore. Things aint been the same for some time now.

Headed back to Wisbech about 9pm then called by the local meeting point to see Ash & Kerry (a couple I have met recently, Ash drives a BMW and goes to the shows. They’re both sound. Kerry makes me laugh bless her.

Saturday – spent most of the day sorting through the pile of mail I have had, new insurance documents, a few company bits and then the normal junk that goes straight through the shredder. Also played about with the car and sorted out a few electrical problems, although there is one left which should be sorted on Monday (I hope)

Sunday – Woke up about 11am and started to catch up with my emails, blog, and galleries etc. I have lots of paperwork still to finish for the Insurance company but am awaiting my no claims proof to come through the post. I have made a start with the bank charges claim, I still need alot of the info sending to me but have so far figured that they owe me over 2200 quid (nice one) – that will clear the overdraft that me and my ex still have between us. Plus I’ve got two personal bank accounts to get 6 years worth of statements from, so that will be another nice amount

Ash took me to Churchy’s (a lad who drives a RS Turbo who happens to have a MK2 Golf GTI engine for sale complete with loom and gearbox). Think i’ll be having that, its a bargain. I’ll get the car shell as well, its just missing the front wings, sure i’ll be able to get rid of that or use it for something

We then headed down to Hunstanton which is about 30 miles down the road. The tides been getting quite high lately so we went to check it out and hit the arcades for a bit. Also met with Garner & Tash and messed about on the seafront for a bit before heading back.

Got back home after a mad drive home (them pair are nutters, both drive RWD Beemers, and theres alot of roundabouts on the way back) Need i say anymore ?

I’m back off into Mansfield Monday evening, if I get the chance I’ll keep upto date on here, if not i’ll leave it til the end of the week, its gonna be a busy few weeks.

Must do’s for the week

• Spend time with Olly and discuss the future and finish some work
• Go see my mate Tony and collect demo CD’s for his DJing and the band
• Send the letters to the banks
• Get the polo looked at
• Meet up with Ko
• Meet up with Zaynah
• Meet up with Becki
• Plus much more which will pop up i’m sure
• Oh yeah, stop wasting time. Its all too precious.
  My minds rather calm at the moment, the next few weeks are gonna be mad, alot of things to prepare for not to mention the shows that are coming up.