Dave

February 15th, 2007 by dave

give you a bad neck, bad headaches and stress

HOWEVER

rising above it, whinging like a bitch for two days and cracking on regardless is what its all about

works been the normal madness, too much to do and not enough hours in the day and not enough people to do it. everything is still cool in the land of Maxxd at the moment, each days brings new opportunities and learns us something new.

Out of work, things are ok, I have been spending alot of time chilling out recently and having lots of early nights, I just feel exhausted all the time. With the car being off road its a bit of a downer not being able to go where I want when I want, walking to see people is out of the equation, everyone lives too far away for ones legs to manage, public transport can kiss my hairy buttcheeks too.
There are a few things bothering me at the moment, someone who has grown close to me is under alot of stress at the moment thanks to parents, work, family stuff. As much as I try to help, it never seems enough. I am 23 and the person is question is 19, I am four years older and to be fair have been through simliar things so I know what I am on about.

Regardless of what I do or say, its not enough, I’m kinda fighting a loosing battle and am left thinking what to do next. If someone won’t listen to you and take your advice or in fact take control of themselves, what can you do ?
As supportive as I can be its affecting my day to day, in various areas, I’m worrying alot, I’m always thinking of how to do this and what if this and all the normal shit you can think of. Although its not my fault nor problem I still feel that its my responsibility to help and make things better. I have alot on my plate at the moment, alot is to do with the business which to be fair is the main factor in my life at the moment, its a livelyhood and if i’m not on the abll at all time things could easily crash and burn.

I dont want to use this as an excuse to ignore the problem but at the sametime I have never been the best at dealing with too many problems at once or taking too much on at one time. No matter what I cannot be distracted from Maxxd, if this goes tits up then my life will not be worth living. Well, maybe it will BUT its been my main focus for so long now and I dont think I could handle it if things went wrong. I’m so passionate about it I couldn’t ever devote my working hours to anything else.

All the other things can stay well off the blog as a certain someone decides to read this and go chit chatting to a certain someone about what I’m doing and twisting things a little. Its a shame that people go out their way to cause upset to other people. Your sad love Got quite a lot on over the next couple of weeks, there is alot to do for the new magazine as well as the sales, its all as important as one another.

Anyways, time to get back to work. Rock on